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An AMAZING Birthday!

It is rather ironic that one of my hardest days happened right around the same time as one of my best. I won't complain because I desperately needed it. Yesterday the 16th was my Birthday. On Monday nightthe 15th my husband took me out to dinner and a movie because he had to work on my bithday. (He works nights, but Monday was President's Day so he had it off) We went to Roosters which I picked but we weren't all too impressed with it, fun still the same. Then we saw Sherlock Holmes, it was great!

The next morning (my birthday) my husband surprised me and got up at 6:30am packed up Emilee and went to my sister in law's to babysit for me so I could sleep in. I watch kids Monday-Friday 7:30am to 12:30pm...but he went for me. I slept till 10:30am and it felt so good. Then I woke up and got ready because my mom called and invited me out to lunch with her and my dad. We went to the Greenery (Yummy!) I got home and my husband left for work, while Emi and I headed to the gym to work out and watch kids. I was tempted to just leave after I watched the kids and not work out but I didn't. I went to ZUMBA and it was the best class ever. Kami is an amazing instructor. It made me feel great. I got home about 7pm Kurt called to say he'd pick up a little caeser's pizza so I wouldn't have to cook and he'd eat with me before he went back to work.

Well, my wonderful husband showed up at 8:30pm with take out from Hug Hess and a movie, he had requested the rest of the night off to be with me! Emi and my hubby put candles in the cake and Emi blew them out. All throughout the day Emi would come up to me and say "Mama bend down," I would and she'd wrap her arms around me and say "Happy Birthday, can I blow out your candles?" Many friends and family called to wish me a happy birthday, and it really was an amazing Day thanks to all my friends, family, amazing hubby, and beautiful little girl.

A Really Rough Day

Today was a really hard day. One that I wish I could say I handled a whole lot better than I did. I woke up with a little anticipation and a whole lot of excitement. Kurt and I have been trying to get pregnant for 16months now. I know that its really not lot long compared to others we know, but for each couple going through it it seems like an eternity of trying. I found out I was pregnant with Emilee 6 months after we were married, there was no trying, no timing, no scheduling, and no work. It just happened. So, of course we figured the next one would be just as easy. I couldn't have been more wrong. We've both been tested in about every area possible and nothing is medically wrong with either of us. To put it in my doctors words, "There is really no explanation for why you are not getting pregnant." But, of course there is...It's not the right time. This is probably on of the hardest lessons I've ever had to learn. How to accept the Lord's will and have the faith that he know me better than I know myself and that he knows when we'll be blessed with another baby. I've struggled with this for a while. The first 15months every time my period came I broke down in tears, Kurt wouldn't want to come home from work and I would make some rash decision...(like the dog I bought) Each time Kurt would try to help me through it, but each month became harder and harder to bare. Last month was a breaking point. I started questioning everything. I was pretty low, and then my husband asked me if I had Faith. I said yes I have the faith that I'll get pregnant so why am I not getting pregnant? He just looked at me with compassion and said "No, do you have the faith that no matter what happens, pregnancy or no pregnancy, we'll be ok?" I thought about it for a long time, and decided that the way I was handling this trial was not healthy. So, for the last 4weeks I have been preparing myself and realizing that I really am happy. That I have so many blessings already and that if my period comes I'll be fine and I'll keep trying until I get another little one. It was a really good month..Until about a week ago. My cycle is 28-30 days like clock work. This month I was 7 days late, and I thought for sure I was pregnant. I took a test when I was 3days late and it said negative, so I thought "ok, I'm not pregnant and that's fine", and I really was fine. Then, my period never came so I called my doctor who said I could come have a blood test done. They told me my HCG levels might not be high enough to be dected by an HPT, and that I very well could be pregnant. Yesterday I went in with my hopes high. This morning they called to let me know I was not pregnant and my period came 3hours later. Lets just say this time I was not so fine, I called to Kurt let him know and then cried for a few hours. The kids I watch kept asking, "You sad?" and Emi would respond, "Just leave her alone she needs to cry for a minute." So even though I know that everything will be fine, and that this is the plan that the Lord has for me...it was still a really rough day.